What Small Steps did for me
I first heard of Small Steps from my Health Visitor, who suggested to me that it
might be a place I could get some support during one of the most difficult times
in my life, and she was so right, in fact it was probably the best bit of advice
she gave me in three or four years of being in contact with her (Ha Ha)!
When I first started attending my support group at Small Steps, I found it difficult
to interact with the group as I was feeling so unhappy and depressed at that time,
and couldn't be bothered with anything or anyone. I was really struggling with being
a mum and resented being responsible for so much and not having anytime to be me.
At first it was a struggle to make the effort to get there, but I after a while it
became the focus of my week, and the thought of having two whole hours to myself
was an amazing incentive to get off my backside and get out of the house. I knew
once I arrived for my group the kids were going to be well taken care of in the playroom
by brilliant staff, I knew that they would have a great time doing all the things
that I just never seem to get around to doing with them. Knowing that my kids were
happy and being looked after by such wonderful caring people gave me the freedom
to relax within my support group without worrying about them and what they were doing.
During my time at Small Steps I have used my support group to the maximum, some weeks
crying and some weeks laughing, some weeks giving advice and some weeks receiving
it, but most of the time was probably spent having a good moan at Lee the Small Steps
Co-Ordinator, knowing that I had the freedom to say anything I liked about anybody
or anything, Lee has heard things I wouldn't have said out load to anyone else for
fear of being reported to Social Services (Joke Ha Ha), it's a good job she is unshockable
is all I can say.
Attending Small Steps also gave me access to services I probably wouldn't have got
near otherwise. Thanks to Sure Start I received Complementary Therapies from Karen,
she has kindly provided me with some much needed stress busting massages and Reiki
when required. I also received several months worth of Counselling sessions with
Margaret which originally I wasn't keen on doing as I didn't think it would help
me. For once I shall admit that I was very wrong, and I am so glad I decided to take
up Lee's offer to refer me, because it was one of the best things I have done and
found that these sessions went a long way to helping resolve some long standing issues
that I had. I even had the chance to do a few Keep Fit Classes, and to become a member
of the board of Midlothian Sure Start.
As every mother knows the school holidays are just about the worst thing that can
happen to you when you feel like you're in a big black hole with no way of getting
out, you know, those days when you just want to hide under the duvet and never get
up again? Well lucky for me Small Steps was on hand arranging day trips, fun days
and play schemes to keep the kids amused.
I can't express how grateful I am to have had the chance to benefit from this wonderful
much needed services, as it has played such a big part in my life for the past fours
years and if it wasn't for Lee & the playworkers, I think a wee visit to Rosslyn
Lee would have been in order a few times over that period.
My kids are a wee bit older now and sadly it's time for us to move on, the kids off
to School & Nursey etc, and me into my first job in five years (just part time mind
you, don't want to exert myself). Small Steps has done a lot for me over the past
four years but most of all, it gave me the chance to be me and not mum, wife, aunty,
daughter & sister etc.
So the only thing left to say is a big thank you to all at Small Steps and Midlothian
Sure Start, I wouldn't have made it without you. XXX